Thursday, October 31, 2019

I Joined The Satanic Temple

And then I quit.

What can I say, I am initiated into a Luciferian tradition and I am really pissed off at what is going on in my society to marginalized people, women, the LBGTQ community, the environment and more, and I liked much of what I saw. The Temple has been causing quite a stir and also getting results. They are on the front lines of much of these fights and are doing their best to stop the Christian Theocracy that is trying to send us back into the dark ages. I felt good to be doing something to help these efforts.  I got even more excited after I watched the documentary "Hail Satan?" I thought it was most excellent and interesting and found the leader of this group to be eloquent, thoughtful and humane. I guess the film garnered much interest, so much so that the Temple issued a statement.

Not a platform for activism? Wait what? Also it is a religion that does not believe in Spirits? Whaaa?

Again dear readers we find ourselves witnessing the fight between the dying Age of Pisces (Christians) and the Age of Aquarius (Insert Atheists of any ilk or Non-Spirit believing Religions). These are atheistic intellectual Satanists. They use our laws to their advantage much like the Christians do, indeed using some of the same laws against the very Christian Theocrats they are challenging. And good for them, but as a witch and someone who has had direct Spirit contact I cannot be a part of a group that views my beliefs as bunk. In a way I would not be surprised if every active member of the Satanic Temple were previously a Christian. They have personal bones to pick. 

Those of us who traffic in Spirits and who walk into the Wild Woods are not the same as those who do not. These flag wielding, statue placing, handsomely black wearing Satanists are still men of clay even if their political leanings are almost identical to ours. They still are not one of us. We have to be careful of these various Temples of Aquarius that are now beginning to rise. We are not welcome there either, but then this is a path of solitude, of the Point. 

Even when I stray from the path I am reminded of The Work. The Left Hand path, which is the True work of Self. It really is not out in the world. The Satanic Temple is not a Left Hand path, it really has more in common with a do-gooder Right Hand Path! So I wish them good luck as they fight the good fight and I am off down the road. 

Happy Samhain

Maya Grey
House Grey







Sunday, October 27, 2019

Witchcraft in a time of Fundamentalist Rage

As of this writing we have seen all over the world the rise of vicious fundamentalism. Before 2016, I and many other people in America who held progressive values thought that things were finally changing. We were becoming more accepting and open. We had legalized gay marriage, were working on more human rights for women and children and were starting to tackle the large problems such as climate change and income inequality. Perhaps these man made issues could finally be rectified and then the unthinkable. The pendulum swung so far to the right it knocked us off our feet. For years I have had this existential dread and have felt very depressed by what I have seen around me. But if we actually step back we can see in a way that this is a reaction of the last status quo power structure to the changing of the wheel. Pisces is no longer dominant as Aquarius takes hold and as once Pagans hid in the shadows so too shall Christians have to hide, in many ways they already are. But sometimes the change of power can be a bloody one. If you are unfamiliar with the wheel of the Aeons you can read about it here.

As we enter into this new era of Science as King we must remember that we too as witches, are not welcome here either. Instead of an inquisition and confession by torture we may find ourselves in a psychologists office staring at a cup of pills being forced to pharmaceutically neutralize the "spirits and demons" from our heads. Essentially trading a stone and iron prison for a medical one. We still have to be careful as even though many of our country men are not religious many more still are. Our best defense in these times, when we stand between the raging fearful fundamentalist and the power over intellectually superior atheist, is our ability to blend in, to hide in plain sight. The fight of the Christian fundamentalist, who is anti-information and learning VS the scientific atheist who is pro information and learning is already well underway. Just look at the fight of "fake news".

This is one of the reasons I do not agree with "the public witch" because making one's self a target takes away from the actual work of witchcraft. It is easy to be a public witch these days, only a click away from an Instagram post or FB post or YouTube video and then forever on the internet. Part of the reason I went underground was the birth of my child and I could see even in 2012 the rise of fundamentalism. I watch them as I watch many others and the signs were clear. Best to be quiet and focus on family and the Work.

Some of my brethren who have activist tendencies have asked me...But Maya how will students find you or how will you help others? Ahhh yes...this ties into the ..."If we don't write about our tradition or have some nexus for students to find us the information will die out!" What people who espouse this fear do not understand is that it is The Spirits who guide us. The information will never die out because it is always there with the Spirits. Have faith. Also I do write this non-promoted blog. If someone needs to find me they will find this blog. If students need me they can email or ping me. I do not seek students. That takes away from the Work. Besides, my mundane job pays me more than any student or group of students ever could and so my commitment to students will never be monetary.

But I digress. Fundamentalism. You will never change them. You will never convince them. They are your enemy and you are most definitely theirs. They are all around you. They may even be in your own family.  So it is important to be able to identify who they are and what they believe. Be aware that the thread that binds them all is militantism and the call to be soldiers in the name of their faith. Here is a brief list:

The Standard Evangelical: They believe in Christ as savior and have usually had a re-baptisim from other Christian sects, otherwise making them consider themselves "born-again". They are ultra Protestants and abhore the ritual trappings of any ritual. Even the Eucharist has been made bland from wine to grape juice and from embossed Host to wheat thin crackers. They believe that Jesus is the only way to salvation. There are many different churches that espouse these beliefs such as The Church of Christ.

The Prosperity Gospel Evangelical: Think of the TV preachers and mega churches here. This is church as "brand" and money is not "the root of all evil" but instead a sign that you are favored by God. The richer you are the more favored. Combine this with toxic capitalism and you get some of the mess we are currently in. It is also the reason that leaders in this movement can commit sexual crimes and still be beloved, unless of course they go broke. There are many offshoots of these fundamentalists.

Christian Zionists: These are the people who are pro Israel and who do not care what kinds of war crimes happen to the Palestinian people. They believe that the Jews will usher in the return of Christ and that this actually started with their return to the Holy Land in 1948. Once Jesus comes he will kill all the Jews because they are not Christian in the Rapture/Apocalypse and they will ascend to paradise. This group also is responsible for a lot of the crazy conspiracy theories around Hillary Clinton and the misinformation about abortion and women's health. Planned Parenthood aborting full term babies and selling body parts on the black market? Yep that is from these nutters.

Christian Fascists: I am putting this here because these are groups such as the KKK, various Neo-Nazi sects and white power groups. They focus on white supremacy but also are very Christian and usually partner with one evangelical sect or another. They are definitely militant and have and will kill those that they deem as lesser.

Conservative Elite Fundamentalists: I am putting this here because there is a large group of these types of fundamentalists operating in our government from city to federal. These people believe that there is a hierarchy of chosen and they are the top dogs. They span both parties but are concentrated in the GOP. Wealth and power are the name of the game and Jesus is a warrior figure to them. Since they are chosen they can do what ever they want. They believe in a slave and servant class, women as breeders and believe themselves to be aristocrats. They have come more out of the shadows as they have consolidated power around President Trump and you can easily pick them out in speeches because they say things like "Christianity is under attack from the Left", as was said by current Attorney General Bill Barr. They do not believe in Democracy or separation of church and state. They pay lip service to the Constitution and are actively working to make all judges in this country beholden to them. They consider themselves to be overlords and even if you are white and Christian you are considered to be a foot soldier for their objectives.

Clearly there are more groups, even Pagan fundamentalists (think the racist Odinists and Asartru) but compared to the wealth and power of these groups they are a mere blip.

As witches and pagans we do not have the social status or monetary might that these groups wield nor are we the focus of their ire. They are focusing on secular atheists (the new priests of the Age of Aquarius), Catholics, Muslims and various other types of Liberal groups. However, make no mistake that these people in any of these groups were raised since birth to believe that we are evil and should be converted or killed and the foot soldiers of these groups will happily answer those calls. This is why I believe it is best to be hidden. If you are a white pagan this is easier. If not you not only have your skin color to worry about but your beliefs as well. Beliefs can be kept quiet, color can not. You will have to be clever, know how to navigate these dark times and practice defensive magic. Because these groups do not practice magic they do not have the defenses to such practices. This benefits you greatly.  Here is what I do to protect myself and my family.

I ward my home on a regular basis. This includes evil eye and gossip charms as well as protection against enemies and thieves.

I ward my child so that he is safe as he goes to school and is out in the world without me. I have also counseled him not to tell others about our faith and why not to.

I ward myself and wear protective charms (hidden) as well as practice mindfulness and power exercises.

I make friends with the most evangelical Christian people at work and in my community. Yes you read that right. I befriend them, not to the point of hanging out, but I make a point to make them feel as if I was almost one of them. To quote a hobbit..."the closer we are to danger, the farther we are from harm."

I keep silent about my work and who I truly am.

I don't needle fundamentalist family members (even tho I want to sometimes).

I watch the news and the tides of fundamentalism in my country and what is happening and were. They are vocal about what they are doing. Privilege gives you that ability. While they rail in their churches that they are under attack they are not underground at all. That gives you all the info you need about their bullshit. 


Well I hope this helps you navigate a little better in these difficult times. Stay safe, do Your Work and Blessings to you and yours.

Maya Grey
House Grey

P.S. this doesn't list all of the groups mentioned because many claim that they are "peaceful" but here is the SPLC's hate map. See what hate groups are near you. SPCL Hate Map.

Friday, October 11, 2019

Thoughts about Women and the Occult

I originally wrote this blog in 2014 but many of these issues still hold true for me today. I have met very few women who were as interested in sorcery as I am, although I am sure they are out there, and seeing as how these are occult topics that makes it all the harder to find like minded sisters. These are things intentionally hidden from view and rightly so. Added to that sorcery is a solitary path and so perhaps I long for something that does not exist.  Interestingly I woke up to the news that the large pagan event Pantheacon will be shutting down. I am not surprised by this and found my own experience of the event to be wholly lacking. It seems though, on a larger scale that the occult may be going back into the shadows where it is the most powerful. Anyways....women and the occult....


Occultsecret; disclosed or communicated only to the initiated. Hidden from view.
Woman: the female human being (distinguished from man).

I just finished reading an academic essay titled, "Managing an Experimental Household: The Dees of Mortlake and the Practice of Natural Philosophy." By Deborah E. Harkness. For those interested in Renaissance magic and ceremonial forms including angelic magic, yes the Dees in the article are "The Dees", that is John and Jane of the 16th century.  For those unfamiliar with John Dee please feel free to learn more on his Wikipedia page, but in a nut shell John Dee was the court astrologer and magician for Elizabeth I and brought the Enochian system of magic to fruition with his oracle Edward Kelly. My goodness that was a terribly short bio. Dee I consider to be one of those "mighty dead" figures in our magical ancestry and because of his amazing note taking skills we can reproduce his rituals to the most minute detail. In fact my friend Lon Milo Duquette has an excellent Enochian magic workshop based on Dee's work that I would recommend to anyone but particularly those unfamiliar with this system. His "cut out of card stock paper" rings and magical seals are hilariously awesome and inventive.  However, while I could go on about the phenomenal menfolk involved in the occult, Crowley, Agrippa, Dee, Chumbley, Gardner, V. Anderson, and Sanders to name a few and their contributions; I want to focus on  women and particularly the experience of women in the occult and the difficulty many women have coming into occult practice. You see the focus of "Managing an Experimental Household" was not about John Dee, it was about his wife Jane and her experience living with an occultist and her female perspective and difficulties therein, and while she herself was not a magician she was touched by this unseen and powerful world.  Many more women today than those in Jane's day have come in contact with alternative religions and the occult and many more have made the choice not to fully engage with the "hard" sciences of the occult. It is my hope that by looking at some of the major road marks on the magical map of women's experiences a clearer picture will emerge and we can separate the "feel good" idea of "magic" in a community context and that of actual magic(k) and serious occult practice.

Sigillum dei aemeth from John Dee's Enochian Spirit workings.
However, let me say this before I go on. This is not some feminist rant piece or some political piece to prove a point. Or maybe it is! I really do try to avoid such trappings but I have things to say people!  I want to try to look at actual magical practice as experienced and utilized by women as opposed to men. You see more than ever before all the avenues of magic are open to women. Where once we could only be wise women, fortune tellers or tea leaf readers or perhaps only the sexual vehicle for manifestation of a man's magic (either in his children or Spirit contact) we now can partake of the entire feast of the occult ourselves. We can orchestrate and experiment and take up the sword if we so choose. Those forbidden books were expressly more forbidden to women in years past but  now are easily obtained and utilized. In fact I feel that we are in a new Spring of Grimoric writing  of such depth and interest, a Renaissance if you will, that it will be the characterization of our magical generation.  Nowadays a woman can pick up a copy of the Goetia or the Grimorium Verum or the Greek Magical Papyrus and practice as diligently as a man and on her own terms.  It is interesting as well if you read any of these old spell books they really do seem as if they were written by men for men.  They are chock full of spells to get women into bed, to make women hot and lustful and to gain mistresses oh and also to make sure your wife does not find out about your mistresses. So far I have not seen one spell to "get that man in to bed", but maybe we don't need magic for that.  Magic of course was not just a man's sphere although I would argue that higher ceremonial forms and the ownership of forbidden books was almost exclusively held by men. Let us not forget the iconic image of the witch and all the accusations of magic directed at women especially if she aroused a man's passion. Wait a minute..first you want to get us into bed and then you get angry when you finally do get us into that bed...geez....make...up...your...mind! Jesting aside, the philosophical sphere of magic or what we might label "high magic" was mostly utilized by men and the sphere of "low or natural magic" was often thought of as more women's work since it involved things like herbs and potions as well as simpler types of divination and this had been the norm in the occult for hundreds of years. Change is slow but it does come.

It seems to me that the feminist movement in the 60's and 70's brought along with it a desire for women to look to a female deity and engage in spiritual practice that was conducive and compassionate to them and their needs, because traditional Christianity certainly was not. Women wanted to make love to whom they wished both in or out of marriage. They wanted birth control and abortions and control of their own bodies. They wanted equal pay for equal work and they wanted to work outside the home. Many did not want to have children. While all of this seems mundane and normal now, at the time it was culture shattering, almost unthinkable. My husband and I were talking about the 1960's and how the boss could get away with smoking cigars and drinking whiskey in his office and slapping his secretaries on the ass as he walked by and that was that. While a woman could not directly challenge the boss at this time trouble was a-brewing for the status quo. The activism of these decades combined with a desire for a Goddess centric spirituality, Margaret Murry's use of bad anthropology, the infusion of the New Age movement with it's feel good message and Eastern influences,  Ray Buckland's bringing of Wicca  to the US and later Starhawk's pivotal book "The Spiral Dance"  all created a huge Wiccan religious movement that was community based, activist based, feminist in nature and focused mainly on the Goddess and healing rituals. And certainly healing was needed.  It was here women could get together and let it all out. They could sing, dance, fuck, love, laugh and challenge the restrictions that bound them. Magic became a "feel good" act and one of healing and helping. "To harm none" was the motto of the day and books like Scott Cunningham's "Wicca: A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner", and "Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs" graced every shelf. Many women were not interested in magical experimentation for the most part, they were swept up in the tides of change and experience. To them the magic was in what they were doing and the community they were building and it was important work.

An early pentagram with planetary associations.
 The people seemed to have had enough of violence and things that were dark and uncomfortable. Was not the Vietnam war just over but still fresh in their minds? Many Wiccans of the period also believed that  thousands or millions of people burned at the stake as witches. They also felt that the Christian God was responsible for all the evils of the world and they wanted to distance themselves from the religious abuse they had experienced. They spoke up about rape and wife beatings and child abuse and no protections in the courts.  But along with the protests and anger about women and children and men who were gay or who were peaceful at heart came another issue.  The issue was small and unnoticeable at first but it was the white washing and cleaning up of the old magics to make them palatable for a larger and can we say Christian audience as well.  It happened in small ways such as Scott Cunningham's description of mugwort as a substitute for Graveyard dirt in magical spells.  No explanation was given why this substitution was made but others came as well and magic and the occult in the sphere of women began to dumb down. Gardner himself was guilty of this as well making witchcraft seem "normal" in his book "Witchcraft Today". If you look at some of his older work and notes through other sources you would not think it "normal" at all. At the same time commercialization worked its way in and found new markets. New Age shops sprung up, workshops and Gurus Du Jour could be found almost anywhere. No longer did you have to study magical philosophy for years and years or overcome magical ordeals or walk the knife edge between being "red in tooth and claw" and having compassion. Nor did you have to be initiated into a magical order. All you had to do was "feel good" and be kind and if you decided you were a witch or magician well who was to say any different? It was all about feeling good and making others feel good as well.

The "Satanic Panic" of the 1980's furthered to create a fear of "black or dark" magic and while available and not illegal to use, those old grimoires were still off limits to many women or seen as evil things to be avoided or even simply not known about. What was once a Western Magical tradition was turning into a religion for the masses which needed to have bylaws and standards and codes of ethics. The magic was being bogged down in the minutia of the bureaucracy of religion and eventually ceased to be magic at all. There arose a new class of Priests or Priestesses who ministered to the masses. This Goddess movement ceased to be occult because it was available to all and in full view of all the masses. This distinction is what separates the priestess from the witch. That is the one who ministers to the masses and the one who walks alone beyond the hedge. They are two very different creatures with very different goals.
Baphomet..the "Devil" has many layers and gifts and things to teach you.

While I am fine with community rituals and women's spirituality and power movements I want to be very clear that I do not consider them to be magic or occult. That is not to say they are not powerful for people in need of healing or community, hell even Jesus performed miracles but occult magic and power is a different Beast.  I am lucky as a woman of this day and age because now I can engage in both worlds if I choose to. I can have the feel good rituals and healing or I can sit down and do some hard core occult study and ritual operations.  The roads are opened further to me than they have been to my ancestresses and I make it a point to learn and do what I can. Yes I balance being a mother and a wife but I also have those old "evil" books to ponder over and the realm of the Spirits to engage with. That is my ultimate passion. I am a student of the occult in many forms from Traditional Witchcraft to African traditions to Ceremonial forms and much more. I want to be more than I am and I know that the ultimate Work is the work of self and the relationship I have to the Spirits.
Yes lets do coffee and evil books!


It is my hope that more women will pick up those forbidden books and get to work. That they will push themselves beyond the Medieval bodices and maypoles and belly dance skirts and full moon rituals (psss I like all that stuff too) and actually study about magic and its workings. That they will push past their comfort zones and ask questions. Yes even ask hard questions to other women. That they will begin to open up and talk. That they will leave behind the lure of the "cult of the guru priestess" and become more. No really, there are enough guru priestesses and not as many bad ass witches. The occult world is hidden of course, that is its nature and our roads therein twist and turn but that is part of the journey of this Work. I believe we women have much to contribute to the occult in terms of our art, writing, and experiences; all we have to do is begin and not be afraid. In a way we are of this "stuff" anyway, we are lunar and hidden, even down to our genitalia. This is natural to us, more so than to men.

 I still see so many women who are afraid of things "Satanic" or "evil" or who refuse to read or grind through some of these more complicated books or systems. I would say to them that it is possible if you are interested and that you can balance the mundane and the magical. Unlike the guru priestess there is no box for you to fit into or live up to.  I would love to sit down with women and discuss how astrological magic relates and differs between Agrippa, Lily and Dee. I would love to talk about sex magic in terms of a woman's experience, or really get into the guts of Lilith and her cult and even make or copy her spirit plates as were done in Babylonian times. Can you imagine a grimoire book club with coffee and confections?  Discussions on the relationship of spirits in grimoires to African magical traditions in Brazil? The sexual spirit husband of the 19th century mystic and feminist Ida Craddock and how women can use sex to work with spirits? How right now there is a huge resurgence in African American folk magic called hoodoo and how that is affecting other magical movements. Perhaps I have ventured into the more strange than strange but a serious occultist woman is definitely hard to find and I am more than up for some awesome conversations with my magical sisters out there.

I think it is time for women to take up their mantles of power and to do the work of not just caring for others but to really work in power. If you are one of those interested in these difficult topics and not afraid to open dangerous books then I salute you! You are one of the few.

Maya Grey
House Grey


Thursday, October 10, 2019

Winds

Hard ripping winds today. More of the Hunt. Last year we lost Paradise to fire and wind. Hell Hunt. Now people are afraid. Power is off to over 1/3 of us. We are in the dark. Afraid of the dark. How will we survive without our electricity? How will be check social? What is there in the darkest corner peering out at us? Or worse in the dark of the trees whipping in the storm. Calm in the violence?

Change is coming on these winds. I hope you are prepared for it. Rending, death of things. In the times when we knew only candle and fire light people were afraid to breathe the very air. Believing in malefic vapors or the winds of Hell could swirl in their very lungs and cause insanity and death. Can it? What swirls on these winds? Deadly flus? Angry words? Trumpets of Hell? Drums of War?

The birds are silent. Only the trees tell their tales. This wind is incessant. Chimes batter against the house and the rafters creek.

Wind. Hunt. Wild riders. The Lord is there too, leading it. Thundering at the front of it. Call your ancestors. Light their candles. Speak to them. Listen. Listen through the winds. Sit in Zazen. Sit in your calm. Sit in your power. This too shall pass.

Maya Grey
House Grey

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

A Question

I have a question. Why aren't more women interested in sorcery and grimoric work? There seems to be an over abundance of women interested in circles, healing groups and social type things. Things like make up and fashion and movies bore me. Are we still relegated to these spheres? Trying to land a husband or only feel power attached to our beauty? Are we merely breeders? Ugh! What about the folkloric use of certain plants and their astrological associations? Any female alchemists out there? Anyone interested in discussing the Grimorium Verum or the Keys or the finer points of Agrippa? Greek Papyri? Wanna get really in-depth into Astaroth? Has anyone actually created a lamb skin vellum? Anyways, something I have noticed. And as one of my teachers used to say...if you can't find your tribe...make it. I guess my interests are beyond niche. So off to do the work.

Maya Grey
House Grey

Saturday, October 5, 2019

The Hunt Begins


Today I am thinking about the dead. A week ago we had a tornado here. It was the smallest a tornado could be as measured by our scientists (a Cat 1) but it was still fearsome and powerful. Nature. Air. East. Angry winds. I felt in that moment that the Hunt had begun. I think with all of this Scorpio energy this Samhain will be fearsome indeed. I wonder what it will bring? Certainly it has already begun to cleave beloveds out of my life. Deaths in all but flesh. This has begun and all I can do is look on at this cleaving and remember my Zazen, remember the center, remember the Point and know that in the end nothing really matters anyway, just the Work.

Now the ancestors and Mighty Dead whisper more to us. They walk amongst us or perhaps we among them. Both. I refresh my ancestor altar every Saturday and talk profoundly and candidly with my non-fleshed relations. I tell them of my sorrows, my fears, my successes and my loves. They listen. Sometimes they have advice. My seven grandmothers beat their drums as they sing in their buck skin dresses. These are my Native grandmothers. They are fierce. Then there are my pioneering ancestors. Those who hacked their way into the wilderness. Tough, hard working, austere and full of the old magic of Europe. Sometimes I wonder how to reconcile my blood. Half of it the Indigenous people of this land here for 10,000 years...longer maybe, and the European settlers who often fought the Native peoples with book and blade; or in my families case married them. Old country and New. Or perhaps it is vise versa? Regardless my blood SEES me and HEARS me. Even the ones whose names I do not know.

Great great grandpa Griffin was from Wales. He refused to read the Bible. He said he had better books. This was the 1800s. He was educated and was a teacher and a judge. My grandmother tells me that he was an old Country Pagan. I suppose that makes for a good story. He was into mysticism. I have his phrenology report. Apparently he had a really nicely shaped head and that made him a good person. They have strong winds in Texas, where he settled. I wonder what he knew about the Hunt? About Gwyn Ap Nudd? I wonder if the Winds blew from Snowdonia and brought the Hunters here? Perhaps I will sit in the dark with one candle lit and ask him one day. He has helped me before.

Strong winds. They are here now. They are blowing. Blowing with the fury of the Hunt. I think about the old Europeans who came here to Northern California and brought their wine grapes, and cork oaks and oregano and mint and the Old Ones. These now mix with datura, Salvia Apiana, valley oak, tobacco and coyote. What a mix. I have always felt the power in this place. Perhaps it's blood is just as mixed as mine.

This Samhain feels different to me. It is as if it carries more death than times before. The harvest has not been so great for many. But I am ready to work through the deaths that come. That is the cycle after all and after the death comes the decay and then the new life. Birth and death are married. Hades and Persephone. All is there in the old myths really.

I have so many questions. Soon it will be dark and I shall put some of my blood into my wine as I sit before those who walked before me. I will sit before them in only candle light. Breath in. Breath out. Listening. Then I shall peer into my glass and see what I will see, raise it to them and drink to my blood. This Hunt will be fierce and terrible but I have so many at my side to help me navigate the dark waters. Honor your ancestors this season. Honor them well.

Maya Grey
House Grey









Wednesday, October 2, 2019

Wilderness, Screens and Silence

Just a few thoughts this morning before I start my day. Ablutions and Zazen are completed. Hour of Mercury. It is still dark.

The road of witchcraft is a solitary one. Well perhaps not if you count the Spirits. But we traverse it alone housed in our flesh. The Spirits speak to us, but not in the deluded way of the charlatans of self and others, but in subtle and quiet ways. You have to really listen. You have to really know the signs. Otherwise so much is lost in the noise. Are you distracted? I think so. I am too at many times. I struggle with our technological and screen society because it is so convenient and so easy. It makes the Ego games a hundredfold more intense. I have seen students walking while peering into their phones fall off curbs or tumble down stairs. We are always checking to see what others think or say to us. Are our egos this weak? Do we need an external locus of control to feel safe? Such fragile shells. The Spirits can see through these masks. They can see deep. They have seen generations of us making the same shallow mistakes. Do you have Spiritual Authority? Do you really? Are you brave enough to test it? Internal locus of control. Start there.

The Spirits in my tradition are liminal and wild. They do not care too much for the grids of mankind. They prefer the untamed spaces. Spaces often with no cell phone reception. Wild spaces filled with earthy and chthonic natures and beings. These are not the spaces of thumbs up, the latest Netflix show or Instagram stories. All of that is transitory and meaningless. The television shows of witchcraft these days crack me up the most. I call them "Christian Porn" for they are there to titillate those who have not broken the bonds of their Christian programming. To frighten the believers like a haunted house ride or to make the angry and resentful ones think this is how you get revenge on the others in the cult they were born into. These shows have nothing to do with actual witchcraft. The more and more we are glued to the propaganda and cultural narratives of our time the further we are from the wild and the Spirit teachers that reside there. Will you find witchcraft on your phone? In a PDF? An online chat or class? Perhaps even a book? No. You will not. Although I can say that books are wonderful and I have much to say on them. My point is that there is so much to distract us from the Work. So much.

Time to leave all distractions behind. Time to visit the graveyard alone in the dead of night. Listen as the wind blows through the Cypress. Push through your fear. Witches command the chain rattlers and the ones who look from the shadowed corners. Listen. What do you hear? Feel? Know? Time to visit where three roads meet. She is waiting. What will you offer to her? It is for you and Her alone. It is not for the gaze of the profane who sit sipping their propaganda online day after day and believing that the world thinks of them. No one is thinking of you, not really in the way you desire. They are too busy thinking about themselves. This is our culture. The me, myself and I culture. Come then, into the moon lit woods at night. The creatures and plants that reside there have much to tell you. Listen. Learn. See. Know. 

Witchcraft and the Spirits of our current are not in all of these things. They are in the wild liminal spaces. Spaces forgotten about or feared. This is your classroom. These are your teachers. So get off your damn screens. Work to de-program your mind from the fantasy and fake stories of mere base entertainment. Learn. Become. Push the boundaries. Go explore and traverse the terrain.

And now I have spent more time on a screen than I have cared to. So I am off to start my day. Off to listen and balance the two worlds that I too must traverse.

Good Hunting
Maya Grey
House Grey